..i'd rather be anything but ordinary..

USP...i hate it here

2004-11-05T00:35:49Z

aaaaaaaaaahahahahaha

phil

alex

daring dave

adam

monil

zack

wiseman dave

sean

egyptian dan

jovial jeff

jessica (aka gogo) after they took her crutches

feel the love....jovial jeff and monil wrestling in the hall

adam and jesal slap-boxing

and that's why i come home whenever i can
THE END.

hxcpnkrckbitch @ 2004-11-03T18:59:00

2004-11-04T00:54:23Z

RIP Dan

We love you and miss you
You will always be in our hearts and thoughts
<3

hxcpnkrckbitch @ 2004-05-24T01:23:00

2004-05-24T05:37:21Z

ok -- i just need to say one thing

bitches better back the fuck off....for serious...

....kthx

..but this time, i mean it..

2004-04-09T13:42:03Z

whatevs yo...this is stupid

thanks
♥

..this medicine is just what you deserve -- swallow, choke, and die..

2004-04-06T05:29:38Z

i love how you can pour your heart out to someone and tell them just about everything there is to know about you, and in return you get nothing....they don't even tell you what they do and who they hang out w. when you're not around...and you end up hearing about it through the grapevine and i just need to say that it really fuckin sucks

other than that i guess i'm pretty happy...i'm expecting a letter probably about mid-week next week, so i'm really nervous about that

i'm probably gonna be dropping 2 classes instead of just one...i'm going absolutely nowhere in life, i swear...

aaaaand that's about it...i'm peacin out til friday/saturday

♥

..my heart is racing to you like a rocket..

2004-04-05T23:30:28Z

ATTENTION:
jamike and comrad vodka

what are you kids doing tomorrow? cuz that's the last day i'm gonna be around before miss samantha departs and we need to hang out w. josh!!! i saw him today and he told me to give him a call whenever, so let me know asap!

..it seems worth the wait to see your smile again..

2004-04-05T17:34:22Z

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says.

"All he wanted to do was kill her."

Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?

umm...nothing

What is the last thing you watched on TV?

family matters hahaha good shit

WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.

1

Now look at the clock; what is the actual time?

1:11 awesome

With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

tv

When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

last night...coming home from erik's

Before you came to this website, what did you look at?

mail

What are you wearing?

tank top, shorts, and sandals cuz i'm ridiculous like that

Did you dream last night?

probably

When did you last laugh?

this morning

What is on the walls of the room you are in?

absolutely nothing

Seen anything weird lately?

5 drunk guys piled in my car haha

What do you think of this quiz?

gay

What is the last film you saw?

terminator 2 @ erik's last night

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?

a fucking education!!! or maybe a vacation

Tell us something about you that we don't know.

i'm poor..well, some of you might know that

If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

hmm..i don't know

Do you like to dance?

yeah...only when i'm alone though, otherwise people laugh..or ask if i have to go to the bathroom

actually, kim dances w. me and it's fun haha

Would you ever consider living abroad?

definitely

Will you pass on this survey?

if y'all decide to be as gay as me and fill it out

hxcpnkrckbitch @ 2004-04-01T23:35:00

2004-04-02T04:38:22Z

everyone, keep your fingers crossed!!!! i'm sooooo nervous!

i'll keep y'all posted

anyway...

i think i'm gonna be dropping psychology at good ol' middlesex...i can't believe that i've wasted an entire year there! i love it when parents screw you over...

...on a brighter note...

i'm gonna be living at my boyfriend's house for 3 days while he gets his car fixed ♥ that makes me very happy

arite...that's about it

♥,
the girl who can be found waiting anxiously for the mail. every. day. (me)

..i love your pants around your feet..

2004-03-30T05:18:44Z

i'm obsessive...i'll admit it

i suck

..i've been goin half crazy for your love..

2004-03-27T16:47:19Z

i have the most amazing boyfriend in the whole entire world

erik stephan makes my life worth living

haha

<3

hxcpnkrckbitch @ 2004-03-25T11:16:00

2004-03-25T16:18:50Z

i fucking hate my life

..you'll find it's full of love..

2004-03-23T21:56:08Z

ok, get ready to be jealousssssssssss......
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<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

erik and i are back together

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

hooray!!! i'm a very happy girl.

shut. up.

..i wanna make you feel beautiful..

2004-03-22T03:44:47Z

i get to see erik tomorrow! yay!!!

i baked him brownies cuz i'm cute and domestic like that....aaaand cuz i love him <3

i dyed my hair brown...i think i'm gonna try to look normal...well...as normal as i can look w. all my gratuitous facial piercings haha "guys...i wanna be preppy!"

i spent $100 on clothes at express today w. kim and kb...i wanted to die..i don't think i've ever spent that much money on clothes before...oh boy...i'll be cute this summer though...i'm so excited! kim and i are practically gonna live at the beach :]

oh...and i got another piercing yesterday...i guess i lied when i said i was done...what can i say? i'm addicted! i didn't get what i had originally planned as my last piercing though, so don't you worry about that haha

anyway...i'm tired and it's only 10:40...which makes me gay...so i'm going to sleep

tomorrow will be a good day...i can't wait! <3

..we can keep this undercover lovin comin, hittin underneath the sheets..

2004-03-20T06:41:59Z

yep...i'm home

i'm sure you missed me terribly

i'm tired and bored

umm.....i think that's it

<3

..honestly i'd give anything to be w. you right now..

2004-03-18T06:10:48Z

hey there y'all!!! i'm down @ JMU w. my lizzie having an amazing time. her roommates are awesome...i absolutely adore them (even though they actually do like country music..believe me, i've heard enough of it). i have to share the futon w. caitlin haha it's all good though -- it's so much fun spending time w. these girls! it feels so good to have a bonding experience like this. caitlin and tara are the best...liz is lucky to have them as opposed to a few of the other girls in the hall who aren't as fun to be around haha. i almost wish i didn't have to leave.......ALMOST....

i've come to the conclusion that i wouldn't hate middlesex half as much if there were dorms there...and i definitely wouldn't ditch almost all of my classes either. i'm so happy here..it's weird. this is what college life is all about...for serious. i wish it could be like this at home

...and on a slightly more personal note.....

I MISS MY ERIK
i love you so much!!! i can't stand being 350 miles away from you :[

..when you come home i'll jump up to kiss you and it will knock you back..

2004-03-16T05:52:06Z

wow...i really needed a night like this...for serious....i am soooo in love w. erik stephan, it's almost ridiculous...i don't even know what else to say about that..i just love being w. him...i've never been this happy in my entire life and it's incredible

...but...

::sigh:: i leave for virginia tomorrow and i won't be back til friday, when erik leaves :[ he'll be in whatever town he's going to at about the same time i'll be getting home..that makes me sad

needless to say, i cried when he was leaving my house tonight cuz i'm a big loser and i can't stand being away from him...i just can't wait til we're married...it's gonna be amazing

i didn't wanna ruin the night w. talk of relationships and such, so i just kept it to myself.. but yeah -- i'd do anything to be his girlfriend.................again.....

anyway,

my room smells like him now which is awesome...i'll definitely have no trouble sleeping tonight <3 i know it's gonna trick me when i wake up though...i'm gonna think he's still here ::sigh:: i wish he could be

<3

..you are as beautiful as ever..

2004-03-13T00:19:10Z

last night made me so happy

<3

i love gabi nickas so damn much....i can't believe it's been like 2 years since the last time i saw her...i missed her like crazy! but she's adorable and awesome as always and it made me really happy to see her today :]

arite -- i'm gonna go burn some cd's for my 5 1/2 hour drive to VA on tuesday...and to listen to for the rest of the week so i don't have to be tortured for 4 days w. the country music that they love so much haha

i definitely wrote this about 4 hours ago and forgot to click 'update journal' before i left...what a nerd

hxcpnkrckbitch @ 2004-03-10T21:41:00

2004-03-11T02:41:23Z

is it ok if i speak to you today?
you've been pissed off for a week now
but nothing i could say could make you look up.
or crack up. is there anything that i can do
anything to show you

you're a bitch
but i love you anyway
you can't sing
but you still put me to sleep
baby, you're a bitch
hey hey hey hey
you make me sick
but don't ever go away

so you tell me that there'e nothing left to say
i drive you face the window
then you're in my face telling me to grow up
i wish you'd grow up
i can't wait until you fall asleep, i wonder if you know that

you're a bitch
but i love you anyway
you can't sing
but you still put me to sleep
baby, you're a bitch
hey hey hey hey
you make me sick
but don't ever go away

yeah you're a bitch but i love you anyway
so why don't ya......stay

..i thought i found what i always wanted..

2004-03-10T01:51:32Z

post anonymously:
what you truly think of me. don't hold back. tell me everything you've always wanted to say to me, either good or bad. tell it all.

..breaking my heart into a million pieces like you always do..

2004-03-09T20:21:20Z

wow...in the hour that i've been home, i've managed to make a complete mess of myself...

i love how i was so happy before this weekend and now i'm back to doing this...

hmm...i wonder what it was that caused all this? what happened...?

but ummm...i definitely need to go take another shower

yeah..it's that bad

what i want to come true will never be real

..she'd stay the night but knows he doesn't care..

2004-03-09T01:38:39Z

so i've come to realize that i miss certain people for various reasons...

like GABI!!!!: jeez...i can't even remember the last time i saw her :( we were the only two losers in concert band and wind ensemble..w00t! we shared boy troubles and mr botros the egyptian gigolo haha ::sigh:: i loved that girl like my sister..wait, i still do!! but since she has to be gay and go to the university of west chester we don't talk or see each other much at all anymore...but this friday...i swear...it's a date!

and sarah: our moms were friends in high school, so we've known each other forever..we were in marching band together and hand bells haha, all the classes we had together in school and who can forget about Priscilla Precise? ::sigh:: i miss those days....and she's just always been totally rad...i really need to give her a call asap

and veronica: again, the days of Priscilla Precise were amazing w. her and i just adore that girl...even if she was addicted to self-tanner haha

and we should find alanna and have a little reunion...except she seems to have disappeared off the face of the earth

and liz: she's living down at JMU in virginia now and i miss her so much! we shared the same bad taste in boys haha it was never a dull time w. liz, she's such an awesome girl..i need to get in touch w. her too...maybe a visit is in order!

and mike moriarty (aka mikey mo): umm...yeah...enough said haha

and matt van auken: cuz he's just freakin cool haha and we got brownies pretty much every day...i miss that whole lunch crew...kalim, crisco, anton, will, and yes....even craig

and then there are just some people who i wish i had gotten to know better...like brianna (which will happen..and it'll be before she moves to brick this summer), and all of erik's friends cuz they're all super nice and just amazing people

and there are so many more, but this is getting way too long

::sigh::

so who wants to be my friend? haha

<3

EDIT:
i also miss shooby like whoa cuz he's the shit and went to see bno w. me :)

..take all your big plans and break em, this is bound to be a while..

2004-03-08T00:21:34Z

so i'm going back to the dentist at 10 tomorrow morning! eep! cuz the fucker managed to mess up filling the first cavity i've ever had and it hurts soooo much :( so yeah....that should be interesting

<3
damn baby, you frustrate me

..give me space so you can drown in this with me..

2004-03-07T22:53:11Z

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Who are your most trusted nonfriends?

i could always use more friends...if any of you wanna add me, go for it!!!

<3

..i have to be with you to live, to breathe, you're taking over me..

2004-03-07T06:36:53Z

i want it sooooooo bad

...and congrats to at a glance for doing an awesome job at the battle and goin on to play skate & surf again!

<3

p.s. -- the lack of respect some people have is just unbelievable

..how could i ever pretend that you're here cuz you're not..

2004-03-06T16:53:34Z

yeah...so...yesterday i was takin a nap and the phone rings...i pick it up and hear "come outsiiiiiiide" so i go outside and what do i see? kim got a fucking car and she's parked in front of my house haha

red '99 pontiac grand am gt

it's soooooo fuckin nice

i think i must've called her an asshole at least 25 times

she said she'd be the one driving us to the beach this summer cuz she's got a sun roof haha...what a bitch

i'm definitely feelin the sisterly love <33333